It was hard but I dont regret it. I had my abortion at 5 weeks and 1 day i knew it was the right thing to do but i did want my baby I was scared but overwhelmed i didnt want to go thru what i did i remember a time i was for abortion but until u have to go thru one u have no right to talk i too also got my sonogram which was supposed to be a joyful experience it still was because wow it was beautiful .i love and hope to see my baby one day .. Would you call that dad-approved? I am so heartbroken. It also makes me proud to know that I was conceived out of love. They told me to think about what I wanted to do and that theyd support me regardless of my choice. I pray one day my baby will cone back to me. Maybe they never will. I am not in a relationship with the indivdual that I am pregnant with and nor do I want to be as it is a toxic relationship. Im 18 and also 6 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend says I have to abort it. I was extremely saddened by the Feb. 18 Buffalo News article concerning the 36 actresses who intended to spend hours reading from "The Handmaid's Tale" to benefit . It was beautiful. We argued and I prayed on it. I always wanted to be a mum I adore children but back then I couldnt keep it . I wish I wouldve bought her plan b or made sure she was taking her birth control but those options are completely out of reach now. There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. He is also younger than me and nowhere near ready for a child and even moving in with me makes him scared. Not how I thought I would live my life. After I check in, I have to take another urine test. I pray for you, and your baby. i struggle deeply with wanting to try again. I wanted an abortion but my boyfriend wanted us to keep the baby. I didnt want to do this. Im sending love your way, dear one. My eyes fixate on her belly, and I sob. I would never say that Im over it and my biggest regret is not being careful enough to avoid getting pregnant in the first place. I move into the mini-counseling session with your dad, and we are firm on our decision. One abortion opponent testified that people in her life had . But I dont regret it either. I know my baby deserves a life I couldnt of given her now or at that time and I know one day she will come back to me, I get excited when i think about meeting her finally one day when we are both ready, I wish I had support here so I could cry to someone who gets it, Im 23 and I had my abortion at 5 weeks and three days in April. These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. I stand beside her and encourage her that she made the best decision she could. The dad is eh. I commend you for making that choice. I aborted my second child at 10 weeks 16 years ago and have regretted it since. I knew I wanted to finish school, and with barely making enough to keep the house stocked with I knew I would have to turn to work full time to be able to keep it. I was pursuing an academic career and never had the chance. I PRAY my baby forgives me for being weak And she comes back to me. He is quite a bit older than me and has 2 kids of his own already. Do I honor my heart and have another sweet lamb, potentially subjecting this human to another absentee parent who secretly resents their existence- OR- do I get the abortion. How I wish I was brave enough to shrugged off the opinion of other people,my friends and family. I will make my decision within the next 2 weeks. Sometimes I still feel her, I pray that shes come back. I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. I want to help the conversation start on a different platform and educate. I feel like the biggest failure in the world. She is with you in your dreams at least. Now Im thinking an abortion is my only option, I kicked him out last night. He comes at all times of the day we talk all day we talk on the phone all the time I would have never thought. They are a group of loving people who have been in your position. This is just not exactly what I wanted for her and Im scared to lose my best friend in a sense because Im not quite ready to grow up that fast. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. I swallow hard several times until the pill burrows into the back of my throat like a rock. My boyfriend was with me when I took the test. Only a few days have gone by since I was conceived and I am now growing in your tummy. Starving, I told him. The following article is one I submitted back in March 2017. to NOT have to make this decision. I feel my baby moving around and he doesnt understand what Im going through. My boyfriend stayed with me but after a while he started blaming me and our relationship change . I know that deep down hes right but its tearing me apart. I was afraid, honey. Congratulations! My parents would have had to raise the child on the other side of the country and I knew I wouldnt have been able to bear being away from it. He promised me we would be ready later and I believed him. This time is different. Collection of 38 Abortion Poems That Get You Feel Sad & Guilty Abortion health information An abortion is a procedure to end a pregnancy. God is never bored of you. I really didn't want to die. I always believed that I will meet my angel one day. So please mommy, don't let me down. At first, he was kind of a jerk, but eventually conceded to drive two hours back to San Francisco even though I had just sent him away that morning. i feel deep in my heart that i made the wrong decision and if i tried again i know i would make it right. Now, faced with having one in our early 40s is terrifying. Oh, Honey. I dont want to go through an abortion again. I m a thai women but I moved to England to live with my husband , he is 34 years old and weve been together nearly 3 years. Im ready,but am I really ready? Help us continue to provide this imperative service. On the day of the appointment I cried so much I couldnt get myself to do it and as time went on I decided to keep him. My best friend just found out she is pregnant a few days ago and she is only 19. All my life my dream was to have kids. I told my mom who was not shocked and she said we should schedule it for the next day. But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? How are you coping? A woman claiming to be pregnant has written an open letter to the "Little Thing" she'll never meet. And I too pray from the core of my heart that you all get back your unborn ones. Letter to My Child - Abortion Memorial What is the Abortion Memorial? Hi. I realize this is an odd place to share this information, and I am in a much different situation now, but several years ago my partner and I struggled through severe male factor infertility when TTC my youngest. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. What if I still had no money, no stable place to live? I have never replied to something like this online before but what you said sounded so similar to a situation I was in last year that I feel I need to tell you youre not alone. A Hand Yet To Hold By When he parks in front of my school, in front of parents carrying in their babies and small children, I call Planned Parenthood and schedule an abortion for ten days from now. Top Poems And I was supposedly either unable to conceive or it would be extremely difficult. But tbh, by that point in our unhealthy relationship I had enough resentments of my own towards him to really care much. I dont want to do this, but the dad is not ready and I am not able to care for a child alone at this point. All of this is to saymom, you have a child, it's me. If you can't take care of a child, please let someone adopt it. 5 years after that we accidentally get pregnant and have a beautiful baby girl but even after having her I still retreat my choice and he still blaming me as he should I guess but we live a very sad life am trying to have another baby but he is not making as much trying as I do because he say am with you only for my daughter and am living for her to but she always ask for a sister or brother I dont know what to do .so much happened in our life that I think wouldnt be happening if I just have my baby and get married with him . Davis, a mother of three, is fundraising online to cover the cost of traveling out of state to get an abortion. God has forgiven you and you should try and forgive yourself. Id give anything to see my baby smile. Many of my patients have gone through the same thing, and it is never easy. My wife had an abortion almost 20 years ago and has regretted every day since. Dear Mom: Letters from an Aborted Baby Week 1 Dear Mom, I know you don't know I am here yet, but I am really excited to spend the next forty weeks with you and never be apart. My name is John, and. Baby. We have only been together 8 months though. I dont know if you have lived in regret or relief of your abortion before this moment, or what feelings his opinions have risen out of you now- all I know is what you decided to do with your pregnancy, whether that involved him ten years ago or not, was your decision. I dont understand how someone who has children already, can be so selfish and cold hearted. Because o hate that its a decision. Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. Its been 44 years since my abortion and I think of her every day. We use protection and still Ive ended up pregnant once more. I wanted to give her grandchildren but that couldnt be my only reason for keeping the baby. Its so unfair that guys help in making the baby. This is my first time reading a story that actually resonates with the bittersweetness if my own experience. I was 5 weeks when I decided to let my baby go, I miss her everyday . Hi Mikal, I understand how torn you feel. Your dad talks about how hes an alcoholic, out-of-work barista. Youre feelings and emotions emulate mine. A letter from baby to mom right before abortion Hi mom, how are you? I just remember lying on the table crying my eyes out begging for forgiveness till They put me to sleep . I was 14 weeks with two boys already. I aborted even though my heart ached and I loved it every day. Ebony Angel B. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you.. Its what he wants. Im 23 years old. I already have a 1 yr old but im 5 months. It is a deep sorrow. I'm not trying to make you feel guilty, but if you are planning to abort your baby, please reconsider. I took a test when i got home from work and sure enough i was. I felt very depressed after I let you go - many days were hard to face, some I didn't. I told myself it was hormones. To be honest, the abortion probably saved my life. nothing was ever the same between us. Long story short Im 26 now, engaged to my partner for the last 5 years. Just a few days before my 22nd birthday. She was already the mom of a young girl and in an abusive relationship. I pray for all of you. Weve been married about 10 years and I have children from my previous marriage that she loves as well but cant help being jealous of. I feel like shit because I was raised that this was wrong. "Please pray for this woman to continue to stand firm in her choice to give life to her unborn baby," the pro-life organization wrote. I had an abortion past the point of having the pill so had to have the surgery, It was the most painful time of my life physically and emotionally and I never expected it would continue to haunt me. I miss my baby every day. My blood is one part plasma and two parts pinot noir. Maybe you're worried about money or becoming a mother or just getting through tomorrow. I want to be respectful and listen to people who have been through the same as me. I paced the bathroom, test in hand, pants still around my ankles, repeating curses to myself like a meditative mantra. Good luck with that husband. I also didnt want to be a single mum of someone who did not want the child. My significant other is leaving the decision to me and will support either way it goes but I just dont know what to do. God chose YOU to be my mommy, The relationship was very toxic over all. I sat on the toilet and watched as my destiny-deciding urine diluted with water, coffee, and last nights wine crept across the screen. The abortionist, he explains, after draining the uterus of the amniotic fluid that was protecting the child, inserts a claw-like instrument into the womb. When I found out I was pregnant, was overcome with fear. The 20-week ban adds another hurdle. She has told me she regrets her choice to abort the fetus, she has said that many times now. I thought about how I had just lost my job, just went back to school, was still struggling with grief from a lost loved one and trying to take care of my mom while still trying to learn how to take care of myself. , I think to myself. I support her no matter what her decision is but ultimately I feel like she is too young to make the rest of her life set and stone. Exactly a month later I find out Im pregnant again. Maybe you feel as if your world has been turned upside-down. We cant afford this baby. I am sure I am going to be the In his remarks before Congress, Dr. Levatino describes in gruesome detail the procedure of killing a 24-week-old unborn baby. I havent gone one day without thinking of it and causing major heartache, especially as family members and friend have now kids. During that time, I had to learn a lot about our choices were, and I didnt want to scroll past your comment without sharing some of that knowledge. Sending love your way. I dont blame you for choosing to terminate your pregnancy. I didnt want anyone in the world to have my baby, I didnt want the guy that knocked me up to have my baby and I also felt a little pushed by his mother to have the abortion so instead of keeping him or her for myself I killed my baby. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. I was worried I would have preeclampsia again, which could put baby and me in danger. But deep down I know I might regret it if I abort it. We started trying, but didnt expect it to come so soon. My supports at the time were my boyfriend, a few very close friends my age, and my 4 younger siblings (3 were under 6 years old at this time). He would have been 7 and his name was Dyno. Ive been sobbing and my drive home I kept apologizing outloud for what I had just done. And I don't need a room filled with toys. Realizing it is her choice and respecting her decision has been rough but weve grown these past few weeks. If you can't take My boyfriend has two children ages 18 and 13. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. I know you made the right decision for you! Made the biggest mistake of my life 4 yrs ago. Im so sorry. I am really struggling with the choice, even though I know it made most sense. The doctor walks in and is quite pregnant. A mother is a protector but I couldnt, I killed my unborn. 'Dear Mommy' So begins the correspondence from an unborn baby to her mother. There are no words. For those who may have suffered physical injury due to an abortion, we ask that you contact Operation Rescue at 316-683-6790, or e-mail us your story at info.operationrescue@gmail.com. The afternoon I found out I was pregnant with you was just like any other day waiting for my period: I was late. It always feels unfair that the times I get pregnant, I had to terminate the pregnancy. The baby has been name Baby Amanda Marie, for the name Amanda means "she who ought to be loved." Abandonment threatI couldnt believe it. My mother killed me. I also feel like taking that risk, that my baby is worth the sacrifice. I wish this was easier. So many people would love to give that little one a home. Little Thing, I want you to be happy. But I want my baby so bad. I know it was the right decision but I regret every moment of it even to this day. She gave her baby girl up for adoption, and now that baby is an adult. My boyfriend and I have been together for 15 years, we have a 9 year old & make about $80K (maybe more) combined income but yet Im contemplating abortion. I found out I was pregnant today after being a few days late on my period Im lost!!!!! That's exactly what I need to do for you. Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. Why cant we have our dreams and a baby? I know I would feel his kicks by now. We have been having the same unprotected sex as we were while still together. I can hardly keep up with what I have now in my life. Please keep your baby. Share Your Story Here. Im almost 6 weeks pregnant and although I want this baby, my husband does not. There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. It was at this point that I started to get really nervous, terrified actually. Thank you for your sorry. It hurt because I was all alone in it,the thought of it break my heart into million pieces Ive prayed to God to forgive me but still I cant get over it. Every now and then I am haunted. Ive been employed in my feild for the past 4 years (student hires are highly sought in this feild). I was very sad.! That is my story which I have never shared. The World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that 42 million abortions are induced worldwide each year. My periods had always been very irregular and I had taken over the counter tests when it got late but I got negatives the both times so I was certain I wasnt pregnant. This post hit home for me. June 1, 2021 2:30 PM EDT. I took the pill at 6 weeks. Putting the baby first. Im confused and feel horribly alone. It breaks my heart to know that the only two times Ive been pregnant ended with me terminating. Ive been her best friend for 6 years and I never saw this coming. And the dad is on pills really bad and i didnt find out until it was too late. And soon I'll get my own fingers and toes. I cry also. Take care. I feel so alone, I have to carry this burden every day. I had one almost six years ago and I still cry about it. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. I had one 7 years ago and my one and only. The Baby Must Be. That, and I literally broke up with him two days prior. And just as I had for months prior, I did so with ease, telling myself, What another waste of $15. See, my boobs hurt and were swollen; I was tired; I was hungry. He doesnt know the end result, nor do I feel that he deserves to.